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Sunday, December 9, 2012

December 2012

Hello. Finally, It's December... Nothing special. Neither present nor Christmas tree since I am not celebrating Christmas, though. As always, December hurts me a lot as compared to other months.

Getting scars. Heart broken. Cry hard. Spend more. To be honest, I don't hate December. Maybe I should take a long break. Just to be away from peoples who break me down internally. Yeah, and caused me mentally block!

How I wish for January to come a little bit earlier. To get busy and to not have time to even think about what life is really is.

Oh, at this point... I truly needs a project to working on. Having a leisure time at the office and going home early does not seems like giving any good to me.


I pray for December to end real soon. (#_#)

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

BLANK PAGE by Christina Aguilera

I know there's hurt I know there's pain, 
But people change lord knows I've been no saint 
In my own way, regret choices I've made 
How do I say I'm sorry? How do I say I'm sorry? 

I was scared, I was unprepared oh, for the things you said 
If I could undo that I hurt you I would do anything for us to make it through 
Draw me a smile, and save me tonight 
I am a blank page waiting for you to bring me to life 
Paint me a heart let me be your art 

I am a blank page waiting for life to start 
Let our hearts stop and beat as one together 
Let out hearts stop and beat as one forever 
How can I erase decisions I've made 
How do I go back what more can I say 

All that remains are hearts filled with shame 
How do we say we're sorry? How do we say we're sorry 

I was scared, I was unprepared oh, for the things you said 
If I could undo that I hurt you I would do anything for us to make it through 
Draw me a smile and save me tonight 
I am a blank page waiting for you to bring me to life 
Paint me a heart let me be your art 

I am a blank page waiting for life to start 
Let our hearts stop and beat as one together 
Let out hearts stop and beat as one forever 
I'd go back in time and I'll realize 
Our spirits aligned and we'd never die 
Draw me a smile, and save me tonight 
I'll be your blank page waiting for you to bring me to life 
Paint me a heart let me be your art 
I am a blank page waiting for life to start 
Let our hearts start and beat as one together 
Let our hearts start and beat as one forever

*lyric copied from http://www.lyrics007.com (06112012, Hr 0933, Malaysia)

Monday, October 1, 2012

Aku Paranoid: Dia Semacam Tahu Sesuatu

Pada mulanya aku tak perasan kenapa dia tiba-tiba jadi baik sangat dengan aku. Aku tak rasa yang aku ada terhegeh-hegeh dekati dia. Bila fikir-fikir balik, mungkin dia terdengar perbualan telefonku bersama kawan rapatku. Aduh, malu pula bila fikir semula!

Kerana suara kuat macam pembesar suara, aku dah "kantoi"kan diri sendiri. Mungkin dia dengar bahagian aku teruja bila setiap kali terpandang wajahnya atau kelibatnya. Hati jadi tak keruan. Memang betul cumanya dia tak tahu kenapa aku sedemikian. Sebenarnya, wajahnya yang mirip pelakon kegemaranku yang jadi penyebab.

Alasan? Ikut logik, aku mengenali Encik yang kini kawan sepejabatku sudah hampir dua tahun. Simpan perasaan? Hmmm... Skandal dalam pejabat memang tak menarik perhatianku. Sejak aku melihat Encik Pelakon di kaca televisyen, aku seakan teruja melihat Encik Kawan Sepejabat. Dapat disimpulkan di sini, Encik Kawan Sepejabat hanya "substitute" atau pengganti kepada Encik Pelakon.

Bukan bermaksud aku tak suka pada Encik Kawan Sepejabat, tapi aku tak punya perasaan lebih dari bersahabat. Tidak dinafikan yang dia baik tapi kutekankan di sini, aku tak berminat dengan Skandal Dalam Pejabat. Errr... dia memang bujang tapi aku tak mungkin simpan perasaan padanya hanya kerana aku meminati pelakon pujaan.

Kalaulah mulut aku ni pandai perlahankan sedikit suara, rasa yang tak seronok ni pasti dapat dielakkan. Dan kalaulah aku tahu cara untuk buat dia faham yang aku sekadar suka berkawan dengannya... Oh, PARANOIDnya aku...

~~Encik Kawan Sepejabat ni ramai peminat cam Encik Pelakon. Untuk aku yang tak "hot" ni, tak payah  nak berangan sangat nak lepak sama. hikhikhik... XP